Go Figure!?!
from Lackore Couture
To my utter surprise, I am considering moving overseas. This, mostly, is because, at this time of my life, I am tired of friction and repetitive meanness. I aspire to peacefulness in a supportive environment.
I have always had an internal keystone whispering (and shouting sometimes) messages about adventure and creativity. As I age, the stories told and messages learned from all my hospice patients are weaving a new combination of beliefs that value a life well-lived as well as the opportunities inherent in each moment.
I know I thrive in beautiful environments where people create communities celebrating learning, uniqueness, and care. I do have experience with shaking my life up profoundly and have learned for the most part that I am resourceful and resilient. The mystery now is whether I have enough motivational and physical stamina.
What I am noticing in the mere consideration of such a radical move is that it energizes me, diminishes my fearful obsessions on the conundrums this country faces, and puts back in perspective the reality that I don’t have to settle for, nor feel victim to, all the manipulation and polarization that we, as Americans, are experiencing.
Perhaps, as an elder, with a modicum of wisdom, I am truly trusting that anyone can think outside the box of prescribed expectations. I no longer wish to be part of the puppetry of external powers. (Note - I see my spirituality and faith as an ‘inside job’ that grows stronger with surrender. I listen for what is resonant with my intuition.)
It would take a crystal ball to know if I will change cultures and country… but even thinking about it is healthy and hopeful for me. Identifying pros and cons with honest critique is empowering. I, like most others, am hard-wired to seek security in the familiar. However, if hospice taught me anything it is that our capacity to be open to possibilities helps set stage for a “good death” and for what is ever more clear as my “good life.”
Besides, I consider the commitment I made on becoming a parent paramount… to model one’s truth and authenticity. Shake it up; turn over the tables.
